Sunday, November 11, 2012

Speaking At a Funeral

Funerals are difficult for most people.
We face death,
and life pauses long enough for us to realize
that relationships are what is most important in life:
Our own with God and than the ones we have with each other.

I have heard of families feuding at funerals but have never witnessed such a scene.

I guess if you live long enough on this earth, you get to experience more and more of what this life has to offer - it must be why you are suppose to have gained wisdom with age.

I can't help but chuckle a little at the events of the past week.

It is not that it was funny at all, but it was ironic, sad and telling.

Family has always been something I missed. Growing up in severe abusive childhood home, I did not have a real sense of family. When I married to an only child, I tried to fit in, but as many married can attest, it is not always easy being accepted, especially when you have problems of your own.

While I longed for 'happily ever after' family experience, what I had was real: sometimes painful, sometimes misunderstood, sometimes unconfident, sometimes drained, sometimes shared in laughter, sometimes felt loved, sometimes enjoyed the being in a family. It was a mixture of it all - good and bad, but it was our family!

The funeral seemed more like a Saturday Night live skit about a funeral where relatives stand up during the service and shout out complaining about what is being said, then a cluster gets up in protest and walking out vocally expressing their dissatisfaction and opinion. This couldn't possibly really happen at a funeral... but it did.

I suppose if I didn't have peace in the Lord that we were honoring my husband's father in the funeral choices we made I would be offended, but we are not. We did the best we could in a whirlwind of deceit, rejection, robbery and anger.

We dealt with God before the funeral with our own soul and took responsibility for all we felt - we faced any sinful thoughts and desires to respond wrongly because we wanted justice or to even set the record straight. We came to the funeral in a spirit of sorrow, acceptance, forgiveness and resolve. We were determined to allow God to control the circumstances and for His will to be carried out. We trusted He had a plan.

Knowing we live in Satan's world and that he desires nothing more than to kill, steal and destroy families we were not going to participate in his desires. We surrendered all that had occured to our Father God and believed His promise that what was done in evil would be used for good and God's glory in the end.

I wanted to speak at the funeral. I thought I would speak a little about a family being given the responsibility to raise up a godly heritage and that our children are our inheritance from the Lord. A day or so that changed and I felt God wanted me to speak about sorrow and mourning. God says blessed our those who mourn for they will be comforted and I thought I could explain how we had hope in knowing our mourning would be ultimately completed-once and for all- when we entered heaven, where every tear would be wiped from our eyes.

But as we entered the room for the funeral service, I saw and felt great discord among those in the room. The air was tense and not much comforting was taking place. I heard clearly God speak 'reconciliation' is needed. When the time came for me to walk to the podium I paused before I began to speak and God again said, "the ministry of reconciliation." I knew what to say to obey.

As I shared about the difference of my family of origin to my husband's family I explained how I found joy in being one among a loving, supported extended family. I explained how my husband and I had to work hard to deal with reconciliation with my family and how we had learned so much about this over the years. To me it was obvious that God wanted to do a work in the hearts of those who sat in the room since each would claim to be a child of God. No one would want Satan to have the victory at dad's funeral - each would want to rejoice is the grace filled goodness of God that was possible because Jesus died on the cross and bore each of our sins. Certainly God would want reconciliation because this is his ministry on earth - we are reconciled to Him and then to each other - which is only possible because of Christ!

Reconciliation was not to be.

Still I honored God, dad and my husband. I spoke highly of each and truthfully attested to the goodness possible.

Most people fear to speak to a crowd, fortunately I don't. At the funeral, I had family members rebuke me openly and even walk out talking back loudly about their displeasure, but it didn't stop the service. God held me close and kept me in composure, in grace and in the respect of the moment being at the funeral service for my husband's father.

After I sat my husband spoke. I was so proud of him. But then I began quickly to be filled with sorrow and doubt - asking my husband to forgive me if I made any mistake. During the closing song I wept pressed against his chest and in his arms. We were one and God comforted us.

I have never been so proud of my children and how they handled such a difficult situation and I truly appreciated our dear friends and other family that attended this small service.

The cream rose to the top and it was a pure offering to the Lord - He was held high and glorified in-spite of the disturbance. And my husband's father was given a proper burial. We had accomplished the hard task we had been given and God had lead us to make the right choices.

Some may scoff, disagree, grumble or have chosen a different way, but no one can replace the voice of God in our life and the peace of God that He gives to those who willingly obey.

 It is well with our soul! 

Yes, even today, and tomorrow, it will always be well with our soul, as long as we continually follow the ONE who matters in life. I am so thankful we have learned to live for an audience of One! Since God is pleased, all is well!

Thank you for reading and allowing me to share our experience. I desire to not pretend and only show the good times in life. I want to be real so that others who experience bizarre or tragic episodes in life will know that they are not alone. We are here on earth for each other, to testify how God works and to encourage each other to live by God's precepts. No one is perfect but all we can ever do is try to listen to God and obey, to study his Word, apply it to our lives and to stay in prayerful communication with Him. It certainly helps me when I know others have faced similar trials and found God faithful.

Friday, October 19, 2012

Look Through His Eyes

Look -

This is the word for this week's Five Minute Friday! I began at 11:25 and finished at 11:30. Five minutes to write about the word - Look. I hope you enjoy.

When is the last time you really stopped long enough to look?

The old saying was to 'stop and smell the roses' but in our busy lives of today we rarely even go slow enough to look.

Not a glance, and quickly turn away, but a long steady gaze - long enough to be still and hear God speak His message to your heart.

Look - the leaves on the trees are turning colors, the squirrels are packing up the acorns, the deer are strolling out at dusk, and the black birds are migrating in huge flocks heading for warm.

Did you see - the tear roll down her face, the way she blushed when his name was brought up, how tense he got when money was discussed, how she walked away when abortion was the topic?

Do you feel and hear when you look?

Do you see only with your eyes and not with your heart and mind?

God has a view - if we choose we can see through His Spiritual eyes. Do you really want to see? Stop and look with your soul, seek more than the surface reflection imagining in the back of your eyes... see deep, look through His eyes.

A whole new world can open up for you and ministry will naturally abound when you really take time to look and notice what is really before your eyes.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Guardians of The Faith

In every age God raises up believers to be the 'guardians of the faith'. In our present age, society widely believes that individual people can have their own interpretation of truths - in a sense - their own idea of who God is, what is His purpose and how does He relate to us. This attempt to be tolerating of other's personal beliefs -- respectful of any beliefs leads to the assumption that all doctrines of faith in "god" are on an equal basis, but this assumption is not congruent with God's own Words.

God knows all truths, His thoughts are higher than ours. While we can not know everything, we have all the Truth we need to know within the pages of the Bible. We can reason together, but we will never be all-knowing as God, nor are will or will we ever become God. The desire to be God - in essence thinking you return to a God-ness state is the great falling point of Satan - He wanted to be a god, and so did Eve and Adam - this is a great evil sin.

Even before the birth of Christ there have been people who rise up as Leaders/Teacher, 'knowing' individuals, of a secret knowledge/truth that is available only to the sincere seekers. Once a person listens and embraces these secret teachings they think of themselves as superior spiritual souls to other spiritual/religious believers.

These Leaders appeal to the human desire to know something that think others are unable or unwilling to know. 

Once a person is won over to their journey of faith, they become in a sense puffed up with self-importance that they were advanced enough to see the light - to learn the secret of living that others are not seeing. It is very important to be wary of "secret teachings" that are only given to those who advance in a group with the concept of the more you are committed to the group the more you are entrusted by the Leader to know - the more knowledge you are told because you are evolving higher spiritually. These are age old teachings of Gnosticism.

Clearly, God's Word and Truth was taught openly in the public, nothing is kept a secret. 

Anyone who wants to know is told and all truths are available to all believers - regardless if the leaders/teachers in the church deem the person to be a new believer or a mature believer. All the truth we need in life is clearly written in the Bible. It is plainly spoken and ready to be studied by all people who desire to know God more and to have a more intimate relationship with him. In Christianity there should be no hierarchies of people - we are all God's children - we are all an important necessary part of the body of Christ - of the universal Christian Church.

Here I will list 7 very simple apologies (explanation of the teachings) of Biblical truths:

  • A loving, ever-present, self-existant God created the good and perfect world.
  • The world became corrupt through sin (what is evil and opposed to God).
  • Adam- the 1st innocent man- became sinful yielding to temptation of the spiritual evil one who desires to be worshipped over God.
  • Adam's fall- and ours - has been undone/reversed through the provision of the 2nd innocent man - Jesus Christ - the new adam.
  • The physical body is not evil, nor is nature abounding in the world.
  • At the last day, believers (who accept Christ act of grace to reconcile all to God and willing to live obedient to glorify God) will have both their bodies and soul raised from the dead.
  • Believers will live with God FOREVER and ever into all eternity in a good and perfect place with no sin, temptation or corruption because the spiritual evil one and all of his spiritual workers (demons) will be cast into an everlasting place of containment - the fiery pit of hell.
These are the most basic truths in Scripture. If one believes each of these to be true, they should long to join with God in a vibrant, personal relationship to know Him more, to love Him, to serve His purpose and to enjoy every moment in His presence and provision. 

Do you believe?
Do you have questions about one of these 7 statements?
Do you have love ones that believe they are following secret spiritual teachings and are therefore, knowing?
Do you live life in a way that testifies how you believe, or simply, would someone who newly met you quickly be able to tell that you firmly hold to these 7 truths or would they be confused as to what you believe?
Have you been told not to explain God's teachings because He does not need you to defend Him or argue Biblical points?
Do you think it is possible to explain these statements of faith without being attacking or negative, but remaining loving while explaining basic facts according to God's Word?
Do you think the Holy Spirit, living within, can empower you to speak these truths in a way that your argument would deal a deadly blow to false teachings of our day?

These are questions we must each consider if we are believers. Is God asking you to be a present day Guardian of The Faith?

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Race For Our Life 2012

We are in the midst of a presidential election. some people say they hate politics so they avoid it, but we live in a country where we are represented in our government by who we elect. Every year there is some kind of campaign race, somebody promising us the stars to be our candidate and then often when they secure the job they find out it is not so easy to deliver on their promises. I think they realize that they don't have all-power to fulfill the dreams they laid before us as a candidate.

God -on the other hand - is not in a race for our support. He offers Himself and His promises. He delivers on His promises and He does have the power to fulfill what He says He will do.

Satan thinks he is still in the race to garner our affections. He had read the end of the Book, but he pretends (lies to himself and everyone else) that it is not coming true. He would rather live in his lies than to face the truth.

Are we sometimes like that? Are candidates? Do they live in lies and prefer to not function in truths to win our allegiance - our vote?

Some people think God is not concerned about politics... those people can't be reading the same Bible I own. God is the God of people, but also over Nations. He is very interested in who our leaders are and most often He allows us to have the leaders we deserve.

In the end, the race will not be about who becomes President or some other representative of the people. The final race - the good race - that we are each daily running is to live for God's glory in everything we do. God is interested in every aspect of our life - nothing goes unnoticed - nothing is unimportant.

Seek God in all things, seek to know Him and His truth, believe what He says, He keeps His promises because He alone is able to fulfill all that He says He will do - He is faithful. In these truths we can rest and make the foundation of our life.


This is a Five Minute Friday post. Yes, today is Tuesday... I am a few days late, but I have written this post in five minutes on the topic: RACE. If you like to write check out the site. It is fun to read what others have written in five minutes about a word given at midnight on every Friday night.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Welcome Even the Suffering

"Welcome!" is a warm greeting... an immediate sense of coming home. We love to welcome what is good, but in this world God does not promise us that we will always have bright sunny days and an overflow of money in our accounts... we are not even promised to have a job or good health.

One thing we are promised is that in this life like Jesus Christ did we will suffer. How many of us can welcome that concept?

But we all knew it is true - sadly... hurt has touched us all whether we are a little child that has fallen and skinned his knees or a grown brave solider who just took at bullet for his Nation in a war. We know this place called earth is not really our home. We sense it every time we hold a dear friend who is at a loss in life or when we mess like we have messed up a relationship by words rashly spoken.

We pretend we have a welcoming place here - in our home, in our hearts and in our hope.

The truth of it is... we know deep inside... we hold our hope in the fact that when we take our last breathe here on earth, our next one will be really the one we having been waiting to welcome... all the days of our life.

Oh, Father God thank you for preparing for me a place that will in the end make sense of all the times I have had to welcome suffering into my life.


This is my second time to participate in the Five Minutes Friday.

The word this week was WELCOME.

We each get five minutes to write on the topic, whatever comes out is to be uncensored and unedited. I hope you enjoy it.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Get On With It - Stop Majoring in the Minors

My life has turned upside down for a little bit. 

Gena Suarez's Baby Son Zion! Goodness in Difficult Times

My daughter, 15, has been ill since early August. We have new Dr appointments coming up in the next three weeks. We may have possibly discovered what she has - a disorder called 'autonomic dysfunction' of the autonomic system in the body that regulates blood pressure, heart beat, temperature, etc. We are looking hopeful toward meeting the research team at the Vanderbilt University Autonomic Dysfunction Center in a few weeks. Basically she has been at home and on the sofa for nearly two months, falling behind in High School.

Also last week a young man, 20, shot himself in an act of suicide. He was the husband to be of a dear friend's daughter and his family also is in our community of faithful believers. Of course, life stops when something like this happens. 

And, my son (19) is still in basic training in GA. We have talked him once for about 1 minute about 6 weeks ago and have corresponded briefly through letters. He is not a young man of many words, not like his mom.

Modest Issues

For the past year, I have written a weekly column for a website about modesty - This is Modest. But I have written an article for over 8 weeks. It has not been the season for thinking about being modest when so much else in life is taking place. 

And I think in and of itself this probably says a lot about the concept like that of modesty - how it essentially does fall in the background when illness, death and intense life situations take place... it is something we can focus on, and in a sense even major on, when everything - at least the most critical elements of life-- are doing fine, but it becomes a very minor issue in life when other issues rise to the top. 

Please don't understand me to be saying that being modest is not important. It is quite important - it is one of the basic elements of a moral society, but I think in times like I have lived the past few weeks it makes me realize if modesty is not an auto-drive obvious part of life than how does one think they will hold up in tragic times, in crushing times, and in drastic pressure times?

Get On With Living

If one can get a pair of jeans and t-shirt on - that suffices and who has time thinking about how low your shirt cut should be... get on with it... either live right by God's standards or die choosing not to, but stop playing games of seeing how close to the line one can teeter. 

Oh, now I sound real chipper... probably why it is not my season to be writing for such a site when I am thinking about a person putting a gun up to his head and taking his own life. The paradoxes we live in are utterly amazing, because just last week a baby was born at 33 weeks and he is doing simply fine - born into a loving supportive family. And even that, the birth of baby Zion, is one of those more critical elements of life when we prayed for his safe delivery so early.

Can you relate in your life?

I am sure I will be settled back in normal life eventually.

 I just don't see placing pressure on our delicate family life by me having outside responsibilities until health is stable for my daughter and my son is back from basic training. (We have several trips coming up in the next weeks to visit him before he graduates.)

Thank you for the prayer.

Sunday, September 30, 2012

God Grasped His Hand

He reached out, but no one saw his hand. 

It was invisible -even to those who loved him most. They simply didn't see the pain crying on the inside, held so close, so tightly, walled-up inside for so many years. Every now and then, he sensed he would crack, it scared him so much. He didn't dare want to hurt a soul. 

He tried everything he could think of to do - to hold on to life. But in his soul he was tormented - voices condemning, trapping, haunting. 

He would wake up at night in a cold sweat, panting, grasping for air. How could he go on? How long could he live a charade? 

God saw his pain. He cried out to Him, "Help me, God, please help me. I can't do this anymore. I am losing it. I might let go..."....he lifted up the gun, pressed the trigger against his head and in an instant God grasped his hand.

This post is part of Five Minute Friday!
Let me explain:

Lisa-Jo Baker has a blog that I love to read. She has this thing on Fridays - Five Minute Friday. You guessed it; write for five minutes straight. No editing. No re-do. She gives the topic and you just write. Then you link it up to her site, comment on the other link-er before you and boom-hundreds of bloggers are writing about the same subject on the same day. 
Today's Topic: Grasp

Monday, September 3, 2012

Endless Beauty

We live in a special time in history. We are blessed with the ability to be immersed in endless beauty if we so choose. By the moving our fingertips across little keys we can find sight after sight of photos providing us a precious moment, a creative setting, and a wonderous view of nature from literally around the world.

Our eyes are able to feast upon the beauty found in every corner of the earth.

I love how pictures speak so many words to our hearts, and to each the message is uniquely their own.

I am simply awed by the beauty that can be found in every day of our life if we choose to open our senses and absorb... to see, to listen, to hear, to touch, and to intentionally interact.

 While nature for me brings a closeness heaven- my retreat from all that drains me in daily life, I purposely surround  my home with beauty too. Soft, bold, reflective, and nurturing items that reinforce the joy in my heart seeded by God and to water my soul.

So, choose today to take the time to notice the endless beauty! It is there - where ever you may go - you simply need to be open to notice it.

I one time found a flower in the desert in November; I needed it so much. Through it I felt God's love and comfort at that precise moment that I needed to know I was loved.

Aim to walk a little slower, observe a little deeper, and pause to cherish what is spoken to your soul when you spot a such a blessed gift of endless beauty.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Change In Life - New Season Mom

Do you need to know you are loved?

My life has entered a new season. I say that and truly it is simply a continuation of constant change - life is never stagnant. Even after the life you spend on earth, you will continue to live. Who you trust, what you choose, how you live greatly effects your life after your short stay on planet earth.

I love the asian proverb that explains that it is impossible to stay in the same place of a river over any span of time. For even if you stand still, the river moves along with its current changing... you can never be in the same place for two moments - it simply is impossible!

So goes my understanding with the new season I have entered: My oldest son, our first born, has left for 14 weeks of basic training in the military - his long awaited dream and desire. We are very happy for him - as he is also very joyful about embracing his life.

At lunch today, talking with my husband, he said my journey is Courageous, for me it is Natural, for others it is Uncomfortable.

I have learned to live life bare - naked - exposed.

Mostly with myself and God.

I don't have time for games of hide and seek like Adam and Eve hiding behind a bush in a garden. I know the silliness of that kind of thinking. God sees me - He is El Roi - The God Who SEES. To hide from Him is living in self-denial or maybe more accurately delusion. I am far too real for that!

I appreciate that my husband finds my self-reflective honest journaling as courageous. He said most people don't have the nerve to or courage to see what really is inside of themselves.

Counseling for 10 years got me way over that! Thankfully the counseling season is a year in my past!

But then my dearest said something else that made prefect sense; he said most people are not secure enough to know they are loved by God no matter what. 

I have laid naked before God: ugly - sinful - unwilling - angry - screaming - sarcastic - envious - lusting - lying - guilty - lazy - irresponsible.... you name it, He has seen it in me.

He has seen it all.

And never once did I feel judged. 

What I did feel was the wide-open, accepting arms of my Father God (father is a hard word for people who didn't have a loving father, but when you get to know God as your daddy it will be a precious word). God, my Daddy, always is holding open my place with Him. Anytime I can run up to Him, jump on his lap, nestle my head into his chest and be held. He never holds me back - He never says leave I don't want to look at you - or shames me with "how could you" words.

"Come here, baby girl. Come, let me love you. Come, let me hold you. I will work it out for your good and My glory - it will all be good."

This is the voice of Jehovah God in the Bible - the one and same God known as Jesus Christ - and also known as our comforter/counselor, the Holy Ghost (spirit). HE IS REAL, but that is something you will never believe because I tell you so. You will have to let Him show Himself to you - like only He can. I can describe Him but you will never KNOW or FEEL or BELIEVE until you have your life touched by Him in the deepest part of your being. Oh, forget about what you don't like about the Church, or TV evangelist or Organized Religion... He hates religiosity too! It is a pseudo-presentation of Him, a false gospel.

God is personal, intimate, and meets us one by one.

My husband said I was courageous; I see myself as naturally being me.

But I can't deny that it hurts me when 'being me' cause people to be uncomfortable. It is like I walk around as a mirror, reflecting soulness and people who don't want to be introspective, to be real - they run for cover. I don't know if I will ever come to terms with feeling like I am causing pain in others... never once have I intentionally tried to do this. I am not foolish, I have hurt many, many people but not because I plotted, planned and aimed to bring suffering into others' lives.

A Naked Writer

In looking at my uniqueness as a person - as a writer - I am coming to terms with this insight. The light shines brightly on the fact that I am a naked writer - transparent - vunerable to the core. It is who I am - the way I see life - the way I see myself - the way I know God. It is the sum of all my experiences up to this point in my life. In a revelation - I clearly see - I am honest - even when it hurts.

Until next post, ponder God and His love for you - this is the strongest reality in the universe. God is LOVE and God LOVES you! Whether you believe it or not - He still does. Regardless of what you have done or do, HE LOVES YOU! Don't trust me - allow Him to introduce Himself to you.

Be still and wait - He will come.


Lindy Lou

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Truth - Is it Relative?


John 8:31-32 … So Jesus said to the Jews who had believed in him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

Who can determine truth? Is there one truth? How do we know for sure? What is truth?

Questions like these are really prominent today. While people have always questioned truth, it has not been so widespread in acceptance to only think that truth can be found academically. Is academia able find truth? Is truth beyond what is academic? Is truth equal to morality? Is truth conditional or relative?

I read something today that caused me to ponder the opposite of truth.

It is not a matter of Truth vs False... as much as it is Truth vs. Error. Many people begin to think of themselves as always being right, and rub others as self-righteous because they aim to do and be right. Christian followers understand that none are righteous but it is God who is righteous alone and we can only be seen as righteous through Jesus' righteousness not our own.

For some people that might sound like doubt-talk, but language is the main problem in understanding another and finding a place of common peaceful agreement.

False indicates that there is one right answer and every thing else is false. Kinda like a true/false question on a test. But there can be more than one truthful statement. Everything is not a matter of true or false, somethings just don't matter nor really effect truth.

The color you paint a wall in a room is trivial in many ways - it can make an impact in your life - the way you feel when you are in that room, but what color you pick is not true or untrue.

What is important in life is for us to learn to remove the errors of our way, not to always try to be right.
One of the most famous verse about truth in the Bible is what Jesus said “… I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” (John 14:6)

Psalm 119:160 The sum of your word is truth, and every one of your righteous rules endures forever.

John 17:17 Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth.

Ephesians 1:13-14 In Him you also, when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and believed in him, were sealed with the promised Holy Spirit, who is the guarantee of our inheritance until we acquire possession of it, to the praise of his glory.

Psalm 25:5 Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long.

Psalm 43:3 Send out your light and your truth; let them lead me; let them bring me to your holy hill and to your dwelling!

Psalm 86:11 Teach me your way, O LORD, that I may walk in your truth; unite my heart to fear your name.

John 1:17 For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.

John 17:8 For I have given them the words that you gave me, and they have received them and have come to know in truth that I came from you; and they have believed that you sent me. (Jesus speaking)


In what I was reading, error opposed truth. We must recognize that we all have errors in the way we live and that God is continually molding and purifying us. We don't so much need to be focusing on figuring out what we are doing wrong and feel proud of what we are doing right - that is to think of life based on our own works.

 God showing us Error allows Him to correct imperfections along the way. Reproof or correction doesn't come with a punitive sense of being wrong. We should be continually improving, refining, and transforming -- to become more like Christ. It is not a mindset that I am living wrong today and one day I am going to be living right.

If God is our source of reference, if He is Truth, then should not a person seeking truth start with God? How else am I going to know the errors of my ways and to know what needs to be transformed? And if someone claims to be speaking truth and wanting truth does not start with God, how serious can they be about finding it?

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Vacation Stress and New Perspectives

It's vacation time! So many of us plan for it and hold it up like a trophy reward for making it through the daily mundane days in life: washing clothes, making egg salad sandwich or watching one more reality TV show.

But really, does it refresh you?

Do you long for more time when you are away?
Do you regret the time when you realize you spent more than planned?
Do you quickly forget what it felt like when you re-enter your home?

In my family, I have a quirky children do not want to be photographed. They dunk, hide, turn or firmly shut their eyes. Facebook and other computer photo pages have them horrified of getting a bad picture taken and plastered for everyone in the world to see.

I so long to have pictures to see, OK yes, I am getting older... I need pictures to remember. And then I wonder, is everyone else like me?

Do people need to see pictures to recall the memories or can they pull up images in their head? The images I see in my head are all kinda warped with new angles and scenes created by artistic cubist painter. My mental filing system is a little off.

Sometimes I wish I could live in a vacation mode... do you?

The morning after I arrived home from our wonderful vacation on the beach in Destin, FL I had a perfect dream to help me land back into reality of wife/mom/individual/etc:
I was in this hallway of doors.
I would open a door and be working on a big important project -- like doing surgery on some old guy or heading up a creative team with a project 2 weeks overdue or practicing a dress rehearsal for a big show or doing a layout on a magazine...
Everything had deadline, and it was pressing on
I would run from room to room doing about 5 minutes of work and dart out for the next room. Can you imagine leaving a patient after a few minutes to run to the next project? I was spinning, overwhelmed and guilt-ridden. And then the telephone began to ring. Really--in real life-- our phone rang and work me up.
But here is the wildest part, my husband started to speak and I told him to wait, I was still able to re-enter the dream. After a minute or so (I think my EMDR therapy helped me with the ability-awake dreaming), I was back in watching... half/half drowsy/awake. And then it came to me, the moral of the dream... I am doing too much!
Everything I do is important, urgent, special -- but because I do so many things I am never competing anything!!! After a few more minutes of trying to let the dream show me how to solve this problem, I had no success, so I woke up.
God was teaching a strong lesson. 

Finish a project before you look for or take on another one.

Where do I begin? I have a deadline on June 1st! I have an article to turn into a magazine editor. I will finish that article before I go looking for other things or digging into other piles.

Pray for me, I tend to get distracted and anything that looks interesting becomes "just what I have been waiting for" which ends up derailing me.

Seriously, I do need your prayers, so I will begin by praying to God for my focus and to guide my research to not lead me on any rabbit trails (if only I distasted research).

Here I go! (as soon as I find the perfect picture for this post and proof it and publish it).

Monday, May 21, 2012

Depression Glass

Colored glassware tumbles out of boxes,
Seemingly plentiful patterns, dancing everywhere.
Shoppers' gifts promote the local stores
A rainbow in the darkest days.

Can happiness be found
Through a rose colored glass?
Is suffering so easily forgotten
In simple kitchenware?

Stocks dropped, Investors fell
Both hit the bottom hard.
Run on the banks locked up the doors
Savings withered like never before.

Dinnerware turns up in bulk,
Replacing artisans crafting with a machine.
Lopsided vases cherished as 
A treasure for wildflowers.

Hearts broke, grown men cried
Hungry folks gather in lines
For a warm cup of soup
Unable to brighten burdened souls.

Packed in flour sacks, common in homes.
Filling up recently barren kitchen shelves.
Roughness in rims began to appear
Used and stacked over the years.

Soil tilted by calloused hands
Seeds of hope planted in everyone's land.
Lessons learned about trusting in coins.
God remains unchanged, but they wanted more.

Rare depression pieces regain their charm,
As we try to find our past, our way back home
We keep collecting things made long ago
But we miss the message of "Jesus alone".

Original poem written by Lindy Abbott 2012

Wisdom Wonders

Courage asks,
Pressing what is obvious.
Light bends naturally.
No one perceives;
They do not wonder.

Space-time splits.
Above velocity slows.
Clockworks losing minutes,
Warping concepts,
Stretching wise old minds.

Bravery seeks,
Breaking with all norms.
Dares laws--wants to know,
With faith of a child.

Original Poem by Lindy, May 2012

Friday, May 18, 2012

Help Me Understand - Obama's Citizenship Issue Regarding His Birth

A teenager asked this question: Can someone please help me understand? I agree that it is important for the president to be legally elected, but if President Obama's mother was a citizen at the time of his birth wouldn't he inherit his citizenship from her no matter where he was born? Is someone claiming that she was 
not a citizen at the time of his birth?

Here is my answer:

Well, the concern rests with the wording in the constitution for the requirement of President. 

The writers (George Washington being one) of the constitution were concerned that someone would come to the country, gain citizenship or be born to a non-citizen and have dual citizenship (a person born of parent who are from different nations is a usually a dual citizen) and thereby the person might not be loyal to America-alone. So an extra step to safeguard our nation from a takeover was made: to require a person be a NATURAL BORN CITIZEN in order to become President. (you have to be careful with the definition of NBC because many people have tried to change its meaning to weaken our Nation's Sovereignty and to exploit America to gain financial benefits.)

The constitution requires for the president to be a Natural Born Citizen, which means both parents must be citizens at the time of the birth of the child and that the child was not born outside of America and thereby obtaining citizenship of another nation. 

No one in our history has tried to become president that was not a Natural Born Citizen, so people have not really focused on this requirement since no person has tested its limit and pushed its meaning to the edge. The discussion gets muddy in the fact that there are a court few cases that Judges have carelessly used the term Natural Born Citizen in the writing of their judgement dealing with citizenship rights, like the right to vote for women. You do not have to be a natural born citizen to vote. You don't need to be a natural born citizen for anything else in America! There is only one legal Constitution time in all of American History of when and why you need to be specifically a natural born citizen and that is the higher standard used as a requirement for a person to become president. 

Since the Justices have carelessly declared people to be a Natural Born Citizen for a benefit or right in legal writings many people try use these cases as a legal precedent to define what a Natural Born Citizen is also for the requirements of becoming president, but it must be carefully noted that no justice has ever tried a case on whether a person is legally eligible under the Natural Born Citizenship requirement written in the Constitution regarding a president. This is a very specific measure and it is only meant for this single purpose. Simply because judges have used the wording inappropriately to apply to a judgement in a case to make it sound good does not change the Constitution meaning of the requirement for a person to become President or the intent for the precise wording used.

When America began, everyone here was not Natural born citizens - obviously - because we were not yet a nation able to give citizenship. People were citizens of Britain since we were a colony, after the revolutionary battle against Britain for so many years a loyalty was forged among most who were still in the country so anyone living in America at the time of the constitution's ratification were the original citizens and thereby eligible citizen for President (similar to what we legal call a grandfathering clause) but anyone after the writing of the Constitution and its ratification needed to be born of two American Citizens and to be born in America (military bases are considered American territory for this purpose).

There has been a great fight to lower the standard. For example, since we have so many people who get to claim to be citizens as anchor babies it is obvious that we would not want a child born of two mexican parents whose mother happen to have a baby while she was legally or illegally in America to be eligible to be president because there would be a danger that the child's loyalty would be with Mexico or at least influenced in a bias toward that other country. 

Another case is that many Arabs citizens comes to school in America for college. Countless of them marry an America girl and have a child simply to become an "American citizen" and to have a child with "American citizenship." I put it in quotes because of course you could see the problem with giving such a person the right to call themselves a natural born citizen. Most divorce and abandon with women and some even take the child after a year or so, but dangerously they and the child are citizens but thankful neither or Natural Born Citizens!

This is similar to what happen with Obama. His father was a citizen of Kenya which was a colony of Britain at that time, so his father was had British citizenship through Kenya (which later was released and able to give their own Kenyan citizenship so he was later a citizen of Kenya). His mother was under the legal age to have sex with an adult - legally she was a victim of 'statutory rape' because she was not married and she pregnant with an adult's child while she was a minor. (she later married him; we are told before the birth of the child). Obama Sr was never charged with statutory rape, but he could have been legally.

Obama's mother was not a very patriotic person, she was in fact anti-American and supported Communism during the height of Communism in the World--not that this effects HER legal citizenship, but it adds deeper concern to Obama's heritage and allegiance and citizenship. Of course the big question is made out to be where was Obama born. Frankly, it does not really matter because he is not a natural born citizen anyway - his father was British/Kenyan... (other interesting but not legal side notes: she lived in HI that had just become a State ... many people in HI did wanted to be a state of America but due to WWII there was such a military presence and it just seemed obvious to make the islands a State since it was a critical place to be attacked by larger aggressive countries.) 

But another legal citizenship concern is: His mom also left America and married an Indonesia man. By Indonesia law she would have to renounce her American citizenship to become an Indonesian wife and her children would also become Indonesian, and loose his citizenship. So again Obama, Jr's citizenship is in question because there is no record of him apply for citizenship after he returned to America years later. 

I know I answered much more than you asked but I hope this helps and give you information to maybe do your own further investigation.

Here is a previous post regarding Obama and His Birth Certificate. 

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

A Prophetic Word for the 2012 American Church

 We each are responsible to stand for Jesus if we are His believer. It has never been so true as it is today that just because you go to church it doesn't mean you are a Christian. Frankly, true believers no longer want to be called a Christian because they don't want to be lumped in with so many pretenders. All believers are gifted by God as He sees fit - we don't get to pick our own gifting. Some gifts are easier to operate in then others, but we each must be obedient and willing to use our God given spiritual gifts.

About 20 years ago, I confirmed in my heart that one of my gifts - probably my prominent gift is that  of prophecy. Prophecy in the New Testament area is not the ability to foretell the future -- the Prophets of old have spoken, and we are living in the midst of the Written Prophecies coming true. This is what it means to be able to read the times and signs.

But a Jesus Prophet (an A.D. believer), forth-tells a word for this present day. A prophet is gifted with the Holy Spirit to see clearly what is taking place and is then to speak about what God shows them. It is not an easy job in the Kingdom, Jesus Himself said a prophet is never welcome in his hometown. Often a prophet says the truth, pulls back the sheet off of Oz, and exposes lies. I have learned to speak and duck, because whatever is thrown back toward me I want people to know they are throwing it at God  and He has my back.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Will the REAL Church Please Stand Up

Warning: This is a potentially dangerous article because posting it on my church's women's Facebook page led to me being removed and blocked by leadership in ministry. While I did not state the name of a specific church or call out any particular person, it was found to be critical of the church and leadership. Either I am sinful in asking questions and discussing the conclusion I am seeing in the church in general or I have been silenced from the body. Of course, it stings, but I am trying to seek God, hear counsel, and do what is right according to the Bible. (P.S. I am not perfect yet... just a fellow Christian sojourner that shares her opinions, thoughts and feelings... always knowing that I could be misguided or not seeing the whole picture.)

What is the Church? Literally it is the 'called out body' or 'the assembly' of believers of Jesus Christ trusting in Him alone as their Lord and Savior.

Well, that includes a whole lot of people, doesn't it?

I am not sure. How many are pretenders?

No one can see someone's heart and no can know for a fact a decision in the soul is made by a person. We can:
  • hear their personal testimony of being a believer, but more powerful
  • we can witness their daily walk.
One truth that we can look for is a person who is alive spiritually, having the indwelling presence of God living within their human body, will be changed; and because God said, "He who began a good work is faithful to complete it", we are guaranteed by God to see Him do a good work faithfully completing a person who is truly a follower of Jesus to be transformed progressively into Christlikeness.

What we see of a person is what a person allows to show. Some people are very private; some people are very public. Some people only show their "good" behavior but behind close doors--in the privacy of their home--or when they think no one is looking, they display their "bad" behavior. A person is not always what they seem - the Bible says the heart is deceitful. And clearly most people try to cover up anything they do wrong.

So what is my point? Does what people see and experience really who the church is? And why does it matter?

The church we see on Sunday is the SHOW CHURCH! It is the very day of the week that people of the church, members (leaders), display the very best outward show of how they want to be perceived by the public (visitors) and weekly attenders. Of course, this is most natural if the focus of the day is visitors and the lost. 

We all know what it is like when visitors are coming to our home. We run around removing what might be embarrassing, cleaning, replacing and preparing the home. We are usually exhausted by the time the visitors arrive, but with a smile on our face, a sweat tea to offer in our hand, we graciously welcome them. And without missing a beat, we sit down and chat like everything is pleasant all the time.

(Of course, some people, homes and churches are exceptions, but you get my point.)

But when is CHURCH REAL? When are we real?

Isn't it during 'family only' times when we think no one is listening or looking? When do we let down our pretense and gather as brothers and sisters in Christ gracefully accepting each? 

The problem is the Sabbath, the Biblical day of resting with God, the one formal day of the week believers assemble IS God's children's FAMILY TIME! So who are we pretending for and trying to impress? If visitors come don't we want them to see who we really are... with our frailties and not yet perfected parts. And if we are doing so much to be appealing and comfortable, what does this mean for believers who don't fit the image? Do we hide them in the closet or the least visible pews? This must be a major problem and head ache for the church.

Could this be why certain people are frequently selected to highly visible areas and other people are regulated to behind the scenes? Does church put its 'best' members forward? 

I am not even sure it is intentional, but for the most part the majority of churches do. The leadership would stutter around and shift uncomfortably at this statement denying it's possible, but when is the last time they looked through the eyes of 'the least of these' in the family of God? the awkward believers? the big sinner believers? the not-so-right believers? the loud-mouths believers or the blunt believers...the ones that will blurt out in childlike innocence 'the emperor has no clothes on'?

Truly, it breaks my heart that messy believers, often the most needy of fellowship and experiencing acceptance, following a troubled life of repetitive abuse, trauma and personal injury by those they should be able to trust... are not wanted. Believe it or not, it is not uncommon for staff/leaders to suggest to such believing members to leave and find another church ... one that will be a better fit.

What are we--the believers of Christ--afraid of in the mainstream churches?

I long for God's church to function as the church - really representing the love of Christ in the body of believers who are in Christ, and at every/any present moment of time in the process of being molded into Christlikeness! Don't you?

For the sake of Jesus, we need to be REAL in order for people to grow in grace and experience Him, and no one is fooled by the counterfeit but those who are part of it. And most of all, the lost often want to stay lost because too many Christians and churches have not been examples of grace and love to all.

A Critical Heart  is an article written previously on a related topic.

Monday, March 5, 2012

A Motherly Moment - God Used Our Sickness For Our Good

My oldest son, Andrew and I went to the Dr today and found out we have strep. I had no idea that a person could have such a wide variety of painful symptoms with a strep infection. I am not sure I have ever ached this intensely over so many parts of my body. Our throats were the least of our pains. We tested negative for the flu, so we are starting a round of antibiotics. 

I want to share a tender moment with you:

Last night, Andrew and I were up because we had slept on and off all day. He asked me to snuggle with him on the sofa, as he watched a military history show. I place a pillow on his hip as he was laying on his side and rested my head on the pillow. I also placed my arm across the pillow. He reached down with his hand and gently rubbed my arm until I fell asleep. It was one of the most loving times we have ever shared. He has never expressed love to me in any tangible way. That tender stroking of my lower arm was so filling to my mother's heart. Before I fell asleep I thanked him repeatedly and expressed how much I deeply love him. Pray that this emerging show of affection/emotion is able to continue and grow in his heart. Pray that I am able to be full of grace, love and slowness in my responses/actions toward him. Pray that our relationship will be deepened and the spark that began will continue to burn. Most importantly, pray for him to be able to likewise take in the love I demonstrate to him.

This sickness that I shared with Andrew turned out to be a blessed event in our relationship. 

Once again God proves His truth and faithfulness to His Word. He is ever experientially increasing my faith, my ability to testify about Him and my growth in love/knowledge of Him. God used our sickness for His goodness in our life. God is so loving and good. When we walk with Him and trust Him, He turns the consequences of a sinful world in our favor. We truly can be blessed in sickness.

Romans 8: 28-29:  And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.  For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.

A Mother's heart is always seeking to cultivate love in her child. While the mother-child relationship will change throughout life, a mother is always available to love.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

P.S. I Love You!

Letters From the King
Dear Child,
P.S. I Love You!

Loving you is my focus today. Will you let me? 

It is impossible to live life long and not be hurt by circumstances and people. I know, because I have been hurt too! Don't let these keep you from knowing My love for you. You may have questions and not understand everything - growing is a life-long process. You can be certain though that I can reach you in the depths of your pain and sin. 

People can feel beyond My reach, unlovable. You can never be too sinful or damaged to be loved by Me; My forgiveness is always available. My love covers all sins. And not only do I cleanse you from sin but I enable you to live in and through Me. You will learn how to use your past for good in your present. No pain is wasted.

Do you recall what the greatest love is? I love you so much I allowed Jesus to die in your place, to take on your sins, so that you would not be a bound prisoner to sin. Believing that Jesus not only died to pay your sin debt but was raised to give you the power and the newness of resurrection life is my love-filled gift for you that never ceases to give. This is true love; It is sacrificial love.

And what is the purpose of His sacrificial life, death and resurrection? It is the beginning. It is the door that opens of My relationship with you - living life reconciled to Me. Don't hide - I already know. Don't be ashamed - I will never turn you away. You can never out-sin my forgiving grace. What Jesus did for you covers all sin! Believe this truth and allow its power to release you. Run to Me; My arms are wide open.

You are My Valentine! You always will be. I love you now and throughout eternity. 

Letter From the King, Lindy Abbott