Pray never comes easy.I have been a Christian for over 30 years and while I know the power of prayer and love to pray, it is a discipline that is not easy.
|Prayer is Talking and Listening with God|
I think one of the biggest reasons is that our mind is so full of thoughts. They bounce around when we close our eyes to focus on God.
In desperate times and when praying with others (even another), it is easier to focus on God and the actual act of prayer. When alone I can be quite lazy.
I remember back to my early days as a Christian-- how I labored trying to train myself to kneel down before God and pray. Many times I ended up asleep. When I slowed myself down, and finally worked through all of the distractions popping into my head, I simply relaxed and dosed off.
I would wake up startled and often disappointed in myself, but thinking the Lord must certainly consider the fact that I was earnest trying.
I am grateful I learned that prayer is a conversation, not a time of pure silent meditation or a rattling off of a laundry list of request or even a written/memorized prayer. In prayer I come close to God in a real personal one on one relationship.