Now 9 years later and 7 years of weekly personal and family professional counseling (family counseling happens when we need it), I keep thinking it is almost over and then God reveals a new area that I need to address. It is like intensive journey of sanctification.
I have a very loving relationship with my dear husband of 24 years and my sweet children - Angela 11yo (5th grade), David 13yo (7/8 grade), Andrew 15yo (9th grade).
I am in the process now of cutting back activities to make life as manageable and simply as possible. I will not being helping with W night ladies meeting at church, or taking a M morning Bible Study. I cannot meet with a beginning team organizing missionary/ministry work in Asia (my heart is with this group - my pastor-spiritual dad invited me and is leading the team), but it can not be done in this season of my life. We are so looking forward to football season ending in a few weeks it takes about 4 days a week of involvement which is more than I can juggle.
It is just me, or does it seem nearly impossible to do all of these things, and still find time to clean the house, plan meals, be consistent with my discipline/training of my children and plan/prepare and execute the homeschool education of my children?
So if I ever appear a little too goofy, serious, passionate, detatched....etc....Know that I am doing the best I can in life. I love God and people. I care deeply for my family and those who hurt or who have been hurt. And I want to live a life obedient and honoring to God, the best I know how. I will never be perfect on this side of heaven. I am growing, learning, being changed....into the likeness of Christ....even if it always doesn't look like it on the outside.
I may look at this post later and wonder what planet I was traveling on when I wrote it, but I try to trust God to use things I do for His work and glory. I assume somehow, someway there must be a purpose for sharing and being transparent when He leads me to speak. I trust Him for the outcome.
I think some of you, have known me long enough, that you probably know and see more about me than I can yet see about myself...and that is OK! I still feel loved, accepted and needed. We need to always cherish the special bond God has given us in each other as we travel this Homeschool journey and Christ-lead walk together.